I Want To Forever Have My Way With Your Human

I want to marry you.

But not just in the conventional sense. 

Pink peonies and a white dress don’t come close to what I am asking of you.


I want to forge our lives in a way that requires us to push past mere tradition.


I want to transcend complacency, 

Break through every box,

Obliterate conformity…


...And I still want to hold your hand while doing it.


I want a big life with you,

One that isn’t defined by the things we accumulate 

But is expressed by the ripple of our unified waves, 

Extending beyond the scope of the naked eye...


...And I still want to cuddle every night and every morning.


I want to discover our edges,

Go beyond our limits,

Uncover new territory,

While sitting and steeping in the unknown of our expansion...


...And I still want to giggle and blush as if I’m some ingenue,

Knowing that I can play that role if I choose.


You see,

I don’t just want to make sweet love to your soul,

I want to forever have my way with your human. 


So show me your expired shame, 

Your forgotten anger, 

Your darkest thoughts, 

And deepest fears. 


Expose your sinful desires,

Your hidden habits,

Your secret hopes,

And un-cried tears


Share with me all facets of your evolution,

Unabashed and transparent in your expression.


Give me your superficial ideologies, 

And surface-level tendencies,

Revealing to me your humanness in its bleakest form. 


You and I both know that none of it defines us anyway,

That our souls are the ones leading the way.


And still…


I want to marry you — 

Pink peonies, a white dress and all…


I want it all. 



The Feminine Heart


I spent my whole life searching for love outside of myself; it wasn't until I found it within me that he appeared.

"Love in The City: Tales from the Feminine Heart" is a column devoted to vulnerably conveying the words of my heart through the unfolding of the greatest love I've ever known.



Jessica Winterstern B.Sc., M.Ed., M.A., is an intimacy and relationship coach who helps women and men discover the love they've been yearning for all their lives. Learn more about Jessica at www.jessicawinterstern.com and follow her at@jessicawinterstern and @thefeminineheart